Saturday 29 December 2018

खुला बक्सा

उस दिन जब खोला हमने वो बक्सा
पुरानी चीज़ो को कम करने को था मन
निकला उस में से कुछ तुम्हारा सामान
सामान से जुडी थी यादें
और यादों में बसी थी तुम
जाने क्यों आखें हुई नम
और दिल गया थम


माँ तेरा वह बटुवा मिला
बटुवे में थी एक डायरी
जिसमें पाया तेरे हाथों से लिखे कुछ नाम 
तेरे बनाए हुए रिश्ते
जिन्हें भुला चुके हैं हम
खो गए बस तेरी तरह जाने कहाँ
सोचता हूँ फिर एक बार
कुछ तेरे उन डायरी में लिखे लोगों से जा मिलूं 
शायद मुझे तू वहीँ पे जा मिले
तुझसे मिलने को आज बहुत जी चाहता है

बटुवे में मिला एक छोटा सा आईना
शायद तुम उससे अपनी लाल बड़ी सी बिंदी
माथे पर ठीक किया करती थी
या अपना कॉम्पैक्ट निकालकर अपने को संवरती
आज वह आईना धुंधला सा गया है
ढूंढ़ता हूँ तुझे उसमें मैं
आईने के हर कोने से तुझे झाकते पाया
शायद मुझसे तू कुछ कहना चाहती हैं
तुझसे मिलने को आज बहुत जी चाहता है

बक्से के एक कोने में मिले एक प्लास्टिक का पैकेट
और उस में मिला एक छोटा डिब्बा 
डिब्बा पे लिखा था 'रवि सादी पत्ती'
और था सुपारी काटने वाला चमचमाता हुआ औज़ार 
तूने माँ पान खाना तो छोड़ दिया था अर्सो पहले
पर तम्बाकू चूने के साथ मुँह में खैनी रखना कभी छोड़ा
डॉक्टर के कितनी बार मना करने पर भी
मैं तेरा एक डिब्बा ख़तम होने से पहले दूसरा ले आता था
अब ना पान है ना ज़र्दे की महक
ना आज तू है ना तेरी वह चहक
तुझसे मिलने को आज बहुत जी चाहता है

बक्से से तेरी कुछ साड़ियां भी निकली माँ
वह साड़ियां जो तुम्हें पसंद थी
उनमें वह सफ़ेद साडी भी थी माँ
जिसमें लाल काला बड़ा बॉर्डर था
और बॉर्डर पे बने सुन्दर डिज़ाइन
मिला तेरा वह खादी का चद्दर और वूल का मफलर भी
आज भी तेरे प्यार की गर्माहट को महसूस कर पाया इनमें
तुझसे मिलने को आज बहुत जी चाहता है

कुछ नये मोज़े मिले जो कभी पहने तूने
समेट कर रखती थी तुम हर चीज़
यह सोच के कि किसी बड़े दिन  पहनोगी शायद
क्यों करती थी तुम ऐसा
पहन लिया होता तो आज ना मिलती तुम
तेरी याद सताती मुझे
तेरी याद रुलाती मुझे
मैं भी अक्सर नई चीज़ें संभाल के रख देता हूँ अर्सो तक
शायद मुझमें तू छिपी हुई है आज भी कहीं 
तुझसे मिलने को आज बहुत जी चाहता है

मिले कुछ नोट और कुछ सिक्के
सिक्के थे पांच दस पच्चीस वाले
जो अब चलते नहीं हैं
नोट थे पांच रूपए वाले
एक बार सोचा की रख दूँ इन्हें संभाल के
तेरी दी हुई आखरी बक्शीश समझके
पर फिर सोचा की कहीं इन नोटों पर कल कोई रोक लगा देगा
तो वे फ़िज़ूल कागज़ के टुकड़े बनके रह जायेंगे 
और सच पूछो तो
तुझे याद करने के लिए मुझे इन चीज़ों की ज़रुरत पड़े अगर
तो लानत है मुझपे 
यादों में तुझे ढूंढ लेता हूँ अक्सर
कभी भी कहीं भी
आज तुझसे मिलके जी नाच उठा है

ढूंढती होगी तुम मुझे कहीं
ढूंढता हूँ तुझे मैं आज भी यहीं
शायद कुछ तुझसे कहना चाहता हूँ
शायद कुछ माफ़ी मांगना चाहता हूँ
कुछ खुशियां बांटनी थी तुझसे
कुछ ज़ख्म दिखाने थे तुझे
सब कहूँगा सब सुनूंगा फिर कभी
आज बस इतना ही
बक्से को अब बंद करता हूँ
मिलती रहना तुम
कभी भी कहीं भी

SS

Saturday 8 December 2018

In Search of History


It was the end of October, a few days after Durga Pujo. The Pandals all stood empty- bare, barren. Ma Durga had been immersed in the Ganges. Only the bamboo structures remained. Perhaps the organizers had Kali Pujo in mind which was round the corner. There was a feeling of hollowness, of emptiness everywhere. At times in the forlorn lanes, which only a few days back had been teeming with people as they jostled their way to get a look of the Mother Goddess, the criss-cross of the bamboos looked grotesque. The city seemed desolate, almost lifeless , one reason being, I surmised, that many leave the city soon after the festivities get over, in search of something new .

I was coming to Kolkata, once my home, after more than seven years. My mother’s ashes had been collected and immersed by me, just a little over a month. I could identify with the mood only too well.

The Homecoming

Every time I came to Kolkata earlier (though I still prefer Calcutta), it was to visit my mother. I remember her standing at the door of our house as I walked in through the gate with my bags and my little one in tow. This is where I came every summer and winter, the only difference being that it would be for two weeks in summer against only a week in winter. Our vacations were always spent here until a few years back when her health failed and she came to live with us. From the clothes that we would change into, to the towels in the stand and the slippers to be worn indoors, everything would be in place. Not to mention my favourite dishes all spread out in the next few days along with the grandchild’s favourite chutneys and sweets. Even if I did not open my suitcase for the a few days, nothing would go amiss.  The toothbrushes and night suits would also be kept ready for us. That was my mother- painstaking, caring, immaculate. Every time we left she would wipe away her tears and wait patiently for our next visit. This was the first time I was coming to Kolkata when I had nowhere to go to.

I was apprehensive about how I would go about doing the rounds of the Banks and LIC offices, a routine which invariably follows in the aftermath of the death of a family member. I was not really looking forward to any of it but had to go about it. During the next four –five days that I spent in this city I was deeply touched by the warmth and hospitality shown by friends and family, many of whom I had not even been in touch with for quite some time. An aunt and uncle completely took me by surprise by arranging for lunch on both the days I visited the bank near their house. I was truly overwhelmed by their sensitivity for they had carefully chosen and prepared things in a way my mother would cook for me. Dishes like thor chhenchki, mochar ghonto, chochori, shukto, shak bhaja and the tiny mourala machh bhaja were on their way out and with the passing away of the last remnants of our earlier generation these recipes would belong to the annals of culinary history. The day we were leaving the city, a cousin packed huge amounts of sweets for us, despite our vigorous protests, insisting that we can never get such stuff in Mumbai. In a way it is true. Only this city can churn out sweetmeats and saris in such varieties and at such prices which are unthinkable elsewhere.


Since there was not much time in hand, one early morning we decided to go to the Dakshineshwar Kali Temple. Two reasons went behind this-my husband had never been there and it was also a place my mother liked going to. Though the new Skywalk was all eager to have us set foot on it, we were not allowed to by the authorities since Mamata Didi was yet to inaugurate it. This temple, on the banks of the Hooghly, dedicated to Ma Kali or Bhavatarini, was built by Rani Rashmoni . This is where the priest Gadadhar Chattopadhyay worshipped Mother Kali with all the innocence and adulation of a child. Gadadhar came to be known later by the name of Paramhansa Sri Ramakrishna. You can see the room he lived in for thirty years, the cluster of trees called Panchavati where he practiced Vedanta sadhana and attained samadhi, the tiny room which was his wife Ma Sarada’s abode. It was at this very temple that some of the greatest men of his time came to visit him. To even think that this place was once frequented by the likes of Keshav Chandra Sen, Girish Ghosh and Vidyasagar. There is a peace and serenity here that is unusual in most Hindu temples. Across the river is the Belur Math, the headquarters of the Ramakrishna Math and Mission, started by his favourite disciple, Narendranath Datta or more popularly known as Swami Vivekananda. The bathing ghats where Ramakrishna had met his spiritual gurus Tota Puri and Bharavi Brahmani still stand.

Calcutta-Kolkata/ West Bengal-Bangla- or whatever they may decide to re-christen her next- will always be my home, a place close to my heart. ..my safe haven.  After an interlude of seven years, the city looked smarter, cleaner and spunkier to me with all its flyovers, malls, ever increasing high rises, fancy streetlights, chic restaurants, broader and better roads, but as many old timers pointed out the city was but a shadow of its former glory, a bare bamboo structure devoid of its much acclaimed accomplishments. Another thing that stood out like eyesores to me were the huge cutouts of Didi, posing  in every nook and corner, which in other states may be very common, but not a familiar one to the Calcuttans of yore.

On the last evening, as I walked into Park Street in search of the mouthwatering Hot Kathi Rolls and the much loved Chelo Kebab of Peter Cat , the bright, decorative, festive lights of Durga Puja, which during the day looked like hideous skeletal remains from the past, the LED bulbs forming eerie shapes, both human and floral, against wooden frames, glowed in all their colourful hues. The city was once again gearing up for the Festival of Lights. The mood was definitely changing.

On our way back, in the narrow lanes of Kalighat, the bare, naked idols of the Goddess Kali, were getting their first coat of paint. In the next few days these unknown artists would bring to life this long line of clay and hay idols with their master strokes, only to have them immersed at the end of the festivity.

The countdown had begun.

Echoes from the Past

I needed to move on.
I missed my daughter and a much desired change from the familiar scenes and chores took me to her in Hyderabad.

While we are busy wiping out, whitewashing and re-calligraphing names, the voiceless stones have interesting tales to narrate. From the broken ramparts of the Shepherd’s Hill (Golla-konda) or Round Hill (Gol-konda) you get the best view of the city of Hyderabad, built by Muhammad Quli Qutb Shah, on the banks of the river Musi. Golkonda was built as a small mud fort on a granite hill under the Kakatiyas but it was rebuilt and expanded as a proper formidable fort over a period of sixty two years under the Qutb Shahi rulers. Here you hear the tales of secret passageways and underground tunnels. Our guide tells us that in the times of the Qutb Shahi rulers an underground passage led the Baadshahs and  Begums to the Charminar and the Laad Bazar , famous for its bangles. When a king died he would be secretly taken and laid to rest at the Qutb Shahi tombs through an underground route. The enemies would never get to know about the passing of a King. Tunnels and secret passages connected the main gate to the highest point in the citadel.


About the city of Hyderabad, the legend says that the Baadshah fell in love with a courtesan Bhagmati. So deeply was he in love that he named the new capital of his empire after her. It got the name of Bhagnagar or Bhagyanagar . Later, the lady love converted to Islam and she was given the name of Hayder Mahal or Hyder Bibi. The city was renamed as Hyderabad. There are other references about the origin of the name, one being that of Baghnagar (City of Gardens) and another that it was named Bagh Nagar( City of the Lion) after Caliph Ali Ibn Abi Talib, nicknamed  Hayder or Lion for his acts of bravery. I personally prefer the romantic tale and if Hyderabad becomes Bhagyanagar probably the nautch girl can still have the last laugh.


The eight Sultans of the Qutb Shahi dynasty ruled their empire from Golkonda, a 5km circular granite fort with an outer wall having a 7km circumference, till they shifted their base to a new city called Hyderabad to solve their water shortage problems. The Fort is an exquisite engineering and architectural marvel with excellent acoustics, reservoirs and plumbing lines that allowed for great ventilation, hot baths for the Begums and an unbelievable surveillance-cum-communication system. The Fort was invincible till a betrayal by an insider led to the gates being opened to the Mughal Emperor Aurangzeb who had been laying siege around this impregnable citadel for months.

When the Mughal Empire was collapsing, their viceroy to the Deccan Suba declared his independence and a new dynasty of the Nizams of Hyderabad came to rule the city. It was under the Qutb Shahi dynasty and the Nizams that the name and fame of Hyderabad spread far and wide. It was known for its riches and splendor to the western world. The neighbouring Kollur mines of Golkanda were famous for their diamonds and emeralds. Its vaults once contained the priceless Koh-i-noor, Hope and Daria-i-Noor diamonds which are now part of Britain and Iran’s Crown Jewels.

Every stone in every monument and every artefact housed in the city’s museums breathes history.
It is up to us to ignore or acknowledge.

In Memoriam

History cannot be erased or wiped out. It is very much an integral part of who we are and what we have. The chapters can be taken out of the syllabus, some parts of it can be intentionally omitted, roads and stations can be renamed but essentially it remains in our culture, art and people. It can be buried for centuries under the sands of time, invisible to many, only to resurface in full grandeur.

My next halt was at Patan, a town about 125 km from Ahmedabad. An impromptu trip to this little known town unraveled a little known wonder.

The Archaelogical Survey of India , after decades of excavation since 1958, has  recently unearthed the Rani Ki Vav, a subterranean seven storeyed stepwell  built in the 11th Century AD by Queen Udayamati in memory of her husband  King Bhimadeva I of the Solanki dynasty . We have heard of monuments being erected in the memory of Queens or mistresses but this was a memorial to a husband. Interestingly, the image of this architectural masterpiece appears on one side of the new hundred rupee note released by RBI.


The stepwell, 64m long 24m wide and 27m deep, had been buried for nearly a thousand years due to flooding of the river Saraswati, which has also long since disappeared. In 2014 it acquired the tag of a World Heritage site from UNESCO. ASI archaeologists have painstakingly unearthed and discovered this thousand year old stepwell through careful excavation, de-silting and restoration work.  The entire structure is made of sandstone with exquisite carvings and sculptures of the Hindu pantheon of Gods and Goddesses- Indra, Brahma, Vishnu, Shiva , their consorts, the Dasavatars,  Laxmi, Parvati, Ganesha, Kartik, Kuber- along with demons and Rishis, Apsaras and Vishkanyas. Stepped corridors lead through pillared pavilions or terraces to the underground reservoir. Rainwater still collects in this well or vav and you can actually see it. The descent into the vav is a journey to another ethereal world beyond the ordinary. It can truly be assigned the title of Queen of Stepwells.
  

Before leaving Patan we had to see another of its wonder- the double Ikat handloom silk sari called Patola. It is a dying art today. Kumarapal, the ruler of Patan, needed to wear a new vastra for his Puja every day. In order to ensure that every dhoti was freshly woven he relocated 700 hundred families of weavers with the common family name of Salvi from Maharashtra to Patan. After 900 years only one of the 700 Salvi families is still in this trade. Rohitbhai Kantilal Salvi and Bharatbhai Kantilal Salvi along with their nephew Rahul, son of Shilpaguru Vinayakbhai Kantilal Salvi , their eldest brother, have still held on to this family trade. A double Ikat sari costs anything between Rs. 1.5 lakhs to Rs. 20 lakhs and a double Ikat handkerchief can cost a whopping 15K!! The Salvis still use natural dyes unlike other Patola weavers and a sari takes anywhere between four to six months to be hand woven. When you compare the geometric patterns and animal motifs on the saris with the carvings and sculptures on the temples and vavs in the area, you realize where the weavers get their inspiration from.

There was no question of returning empty handed after seeing the weaving process. So, finally, I settled for its paler cousin, the more popular single Ikat weave sari which, though more reasonably priced, is not regarded by the Salvis as their patented traditional Patola . A thousand year old craft is on the verge of becoming extinct as other Salvi members have moved on to newer and more lucrative professions. The art might be dying but it remains very much a part of the history of Patan, once the capital of Gujarat, and ruled by the Chavdas and Solankis.

Master Craftsmen Rohit & Bharat Bhai  with Double Ikat Loom
Now back home, I am happy to have a little bit of history as part of my wardrobe!

DS