Ode to April Rains and Desires

 

I want to see the Northern lights

I want to watch the sun set on the Grand Canyon

I want to stand atop Machu Pichu

I want to cycle around Amsterdam

I want to walk the streets of Paris

I want to witness the Great Migration

I want to go to Pondicherry with my girls

I want to go for my best friend’s wedding

I want an April rain to come more often

I want to go home

I want to go home without a test

I want to go home without the fear of a false report

I want to breathe without a filter

I want to breathe without using up oxygen

I want to breathe without being conscious

I want to read Bombay Times

I want to read news without numbers

I want to read news, not new guidelines

I want to get a call from an old friend

I want to get a call, not a plea

I want to get a call that I can answer

I want to talk like ‘how are you’ is a formality

I want to laugh at memes without knowing they are true

I want to share a joke without the sliver of cynicism

I want to cut the bad and sew the good

I want to do what I was meant to do

I want to hold the scalpel, not the certificate

I want to sweat from exhaustion, not from a plastic suit

I want to treat, not test

I want to feel the thrill, not search for pulse

I want to give a hug, not face the hate

I want to deliver a drug, not drive a madness

I want to keep the coat white, not wager it in black

I want to ignore the scratch in my throat, it must be from screaming hoarse

I want to know if people heard me, or did the election rally drown it again

I want to see the coverings over nose and mouth, not blindfolds and blinkers

I want to fight what is wrong, not fail with it

I want to dream, not dread

I want to add to my bucket list, not scratch things out

I want to wait for new beginnings, not for an end

But I think I just want to confess

That I am guilty of wanting too much.

(The views expressed are not an individual's but of doctors around the country breaking down under the collapsing healthcare and gross misjudgement of priorities.)

MS